sorry...buys la and lazy to blog.
i know it looks die but is ALIVE!!!!

i shall update from where i think i can start........

army life sucks la... really if i got a chance i will want to skip this chapter of my life. working timing not regular, have alot of shift, test, training... and things to remember which already drain up almost half of my brain juices. lucky there is friend around supporting each other in training.
i mean still i can't wait for me to ORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! year and & months more..... (OMG)

ok, back to xmas.
xmas was i rush and busy day for me. have cnl xmas performance and yu ting house xmas gathering. then have to rush from one side to other side. and in between i have to find time to buy xmas present for xchange. and lucky i got it. reach yu ting house, we chatted and play games, like rock band little big planet. we just play and play and play non-stop until we battery flat(i mean we humans).

er.... after looking at what i typing. like making no sense. but nvm try to understand what i saying.

tw aluni band have finally started again. so please come back!!!! i really need you alumni. so every saturday will be a very busy day for me le. morning 8 to 10 am is main band section. for woodwinds, bass, percussion all the way to even full band. 1030 to 12 or 12 30 is alumni band.
for now we are playing thru a few pieces like ross roy, jap graf 12, persis... and others. i know it dun sound promising cause our band still small. so if you all got any nice song and bring and sight read.:)

lastly i think i have to have some new year resolutions too.
1. save money..... going to be poor soon
2. decide what i want to study....(NIE band director dip or try nus yong siew toh)
3. must really go work out to lost some weight my my health.
4. try to increase my brain juices and dun get F*** by army things
5. god bless ah ma for good health
6. meet up with friend that i have not been meeting
7. forgot the past and befriend again
8. tw band syf pls give them a good result
9. give me time for my music study too.( hope i can force myself to study when i free too)
10. maybe is time to find a soulmate. (if not like place on shelf and no one wants like darryl die lor) joking only!!!!

after poc haven been updating.

alot of things happen in my NS BMTC period. we got fun, people bed got carried out when they are in deep sleep. draw they faces and body. water parade, pull underwear and even change locker.

sorry la no mood to update.

hope i am OK and you are OK too.

hope that the other you think that we are just good friend.

hope that the other other you can talk abit more like in the past.

hope that i can adapt in my new place but not the place i want.

In BMTC i learn that not everything you want you can get, and alot of things that you dun want you will get. just have to work happily and do what you need to do in your job. i think that can spent your time more meaning ful and faster.

AIRFORCE i am coming!!!!!

jing remember my eupho practical grade 5!!!!

i am here to update my blog before in go in ns. time have pass very fast. many things have happen in my poly and post poly life and i think i learn alot. but to use it i dunno. i hope i will not be as blur and careless. and trust myself more.

i really you miss my family and friends. cause once go on ns i dun have time to join them even after bmt. thanks for all my friends who sent farewell msg, call me to tell me and in any way. i miss sp band, my eupho section and twss band, schools that i have teach, my alumni band and lastly my home.

i will be going for a long chalet. hope to see you all again 2 weeks later.
bye everyone.

i will learn to take care myself.

Should I stay or Should I go

it seems like there is alot of misunderstanding happening around me. the best is until now i still cannot get over somethings and even solve it. eveything seems getting worst. why people just can't see how i want to help them but see it as i want them the way i one.

maybe is my way of doing things. and every single year there will be a major thing happen. i feel very bad i keep thinking that is me that never teach them the right thing. i feel that i may have teach them the wrong thing. i dunno. i messing up myself now. i really dunno how to go in ns in the shape i am now.

i tell myself not to care what people think about when i know i am doing the right thing. but i always want to make everyone happy which will not happen.

should i stay or should i go?
i really dunno. if i'm that bad why? if i'm that good why?
i trying to stay as focus as i can.
why am i so weak.
why people just dun give me that chance to show or believe in what i can do for you.

if everything seems so bad.

i will leave and not going back.

it seems this is the best way.

until i know how to do.

thanks god for letting me know.

is really time for me to do things i want to do

today was section competition in sp band again. the yearly competition we have.
this year section saxophone section won. i told you guys the first 20 over bar you all will win le. :)

for my section this year we tried 2 pieces nessun dorma and doramon. at least i feel our chord really sounded very nice. i also know that you all sounded very nice during so practises. you all make me feel so proud. i also want to thanks you all for choosing my pieces and playing it well.( the better times when i have hair stand)

dun feel bad everyone we did our best to pull thru all the pieces and we also sectional ibm main band pieces too and got things done.

hope we can have a section outing before holiday end.
but at the same time study for mst.

:)

things are starting to change.
people like to say one thing do one thing.
one break off here and go find a new one right away.
friends of the break one angry and dun like him, BUT
still befriend with him, dunno is act or what.

some want to end a long relationship but now dunno want anot.
some girlfriend can be bitchy until we cannot stand it.
some are just so attention seeker.

guy just dun like this type of girls.
BUT that does not mean can find a new one straight away.
when reason is one yoursleves.

some got too close and got into trouble.
but dunno whether will go strong cause it dun seem so.

some just always want to be together.
BUT start to leave from friends and blame here and there for nothing.
the worst is they think they know everytime and anything.
but in actual fact they are nothing and dunno anything.

i just feel that people and wearing more and more mask.
i really dunno them
cannot trust them any more.
so see them grow from young some are people in the working world.
changes are all around.

you want to help them and stop them from turn into the wrong path.
they FUCK you up side down and say that you dun understand what is love or whatever.
in the end the trust has just break like this.

i dunno what to do and say
just hope these fuckers just leave and dun come back and disturb my life my friends my bands and everything. go and live in your world that you can cover whatever things you can.



lastly there is not personal attact.
if anyone of you feel that i am saying you that means you did it before haha:P