Friends or just Friends

Today went back teck whye for band. Before that have lunch with yyt, zoe, darryl and don. When we reach teck whye, they were all doing marching. As usual some how i will go and take over and i think is time to make them have more fell in doing marching and do it well. So took them scold them and do the things over and over again. Some of them are starting to like it and do it seriously. Colin came and he dun look good. i dunno whether izzit because i miss the last sunday practice. But i i found out that the trouble in the band have grew bigger and i think it have solve as todays practise alot of people came and good run thru of the first half. cause before that he told me maybe cancel of this concert. OH NO!!! i some how dun like this feeling. hai.

but is no more hope we can sell more tickets and have a good concert. but today some how i got just lose another solo just like this. haizzz. he cannot count or watch sometime really makes me angry. i no i am not a good player but at least i know went to play or shut up.

on the way home alone as usual.

just some how felt that we are not that close anymore. as friend

we use to chat for a long hours and now like can't talk.

i always try to find the rite time so we can talk longer but some how is i dunno what to say or is just that we are both not enthu enough to chat.

i know there are times like fighting and helping me.

and use to have you to call me and even ask how i am.

but now i dunno. maybe i think too much but i sure how i feel.

you told her that you have not change any ways towards me, is just because you are not free, but somehow i dunno izzit really like that. is not i dun trust you but is just too coincedent. i am not doubting you but is how i think.

is like now you will not coming to me and talk but only when you need me.

maybe like this also good for me to think carefully.

finally i got to work abit for more money hehehe.... teaching band tml....

good luck to me and good nite if i can sleep.