come and know my other side

yesterday i went shopping with Alex Fredrick and yanlin. in the end all of us the clothing style very different. and we have to buy it like the following week.

then went to meet ching si and poh wah for mus art concert. it was OK la. is just too loud and noisy. but i very jealous of the Mr Wong. the guest conductor that day conducting his own piece. he is just 1 year older then me, but he is 10 to 20 times better then me. how i wish i could be like him now.

that is why today i wanted to try sight Noak's ark with cnl with my conducting. but in the end we got a meeting saying we are not bring up the standards. i agree, but today i was not prepared it was a last min thing. i only can blame myself. the worst part is every all have high music theory then me and i feel so small during the meeting. cause everyone have meet before for this meeting and i'm like the first time.

i just feel so small. and i need to do alot more them what i am doing now. but i dun have the time for it. or is not the rite time because i going army this year.

i suddenly feel i dunno whether i should carry on this job that i wanted.

i feel so so small. very very small. i dunno how to face it.