CNL concert folklore and fantasy

finally CNL concert folklore and fantasy is over!!!! this concert we only played 6 songs.... but are very hard( like Hans Christan Anderson suit and fantasy var). concert went well i think. ( heard from friends all around who went for the concert.

the first song folklore for band
we played it very clean and balance was not bad. but like not enough eupho. my first solo of the concert. but cannot be heard. :( very sad la. cover my the clarinets.

second song Hans Christan Anderson suit
good grand opening. but after that like abit breaking down but haven break down that kind.
second movement soso. third one also. the fourth one i first time can play everything nicely :).
then fifth ok but the last movement a bit scary. cause everyone like scare make mistake at this movement which i think is the nicest movement yet the hardest.

third song 7 night of july.
i knew it when i took out my mute. everyone started to wow...
hahahaha i think i first time played 7 night of July so well.

fourth song a longford legend
i heard from friends like this is one of the better pieces we played. cause got strong woodwinds.

fifth song fantasy variations
my nightmare. even though i played this piece before of MD, but is play with a big group so and take turns to rest. but this time only got 2 eupho. die. the worst thing is i still screw up the solo. even when i have practise it since the preparation for MD. my tone start to become air and stress. ar i really very sad. and got no mood to play. maybe the other eupho guy maybe think he should have play that solo.

last song la puta
the song that i first conducted in the first alumni band concert. but we sounded very nice.

during encore, Colin when to make a speech and thanks all his friends for helping him in playing in this concert. and propose to his girlfriend for marriage. i was shock. i know he will propose to her but dunno is this concert. hahaha feel so happy for him. some more the girlfriend is a very nice person. hai. and wei ren they start shouted when is mine turn. -.-

in conclusion, i still very sad. dunno izzit i screw up that solo or what, but i also happy to have this kind for ending for a concert. is touching. i when to congratulate him and he hug me with gratefulness and thank me and call me brother. i am very touch. first time someone did that to me. i dunno why i just feel that i got appreciate by people.

but i still just dun feel happy now. really dunno. but wish Colin and his girlfriend, best wishes.

I HATE YOU!!!

I HATE YOU EMO MONSTER!!!

I HATE YOU GIVING ME SO MUCH TROUBLE!!!!

GO AWAY!!!!

EMO

My emo monster come attack me again?

why always me?

i really feel very small and wick.

soon will be eaten up but emo monster!

dun want to grow up

dun want to grow up.

but is life to do that.

friends will go and gone.

troubles will come find you more.

can't cover these facts.

maybe is time to learn how to let go.

but atleast see me for the last time.

and what i achieve.

can't have you all to help me always now.

even if i want, you all also will leave.

maybe is a cycle.

learn to accept it.......................


hope so........
to everyone that step into my life.............

boston brass in SINGAPORE

finally to day i got the feel to blog. Boston brass came to Singapore last week. they are really dam good. they have 2 concerts and one workshop and i went all the 3. hehe i like Boston siao... go everything. hahaha their solo concert is very nice. got to hear good trumpet sound at their high notes where i dun think any Singaporeans can play it and that french horn guy J.D Shaw is the best among all i feel. he really have that X factor in him that everyone will just want to look and hear to him. in the concert itself, they were disturbing one of their friend about chicken. got to know why they say he like chicken because of the song they going to play. THE CHICKEN!!! -.-

but i still can't wait them to play their last song caravan.

then went to their workshop. their did almost the same thing but this time we got a chance to talk to them in person know more about them, in playing, performing and even problem that we have. and got to take a picture with Lance Laduke and euphonium / trombone player.

lastly went Phil wind concert with Boston brass in concert. the toccata and fug in D minor was good. i really like the lower reeds rich sound and really makes the chords sounded like from a pipe organ. i fall in love with the piece heroes and legend. the piece boston brass played with the phil winds. in the end their still play the piece caravan which is something that you will not feel sian when listen to it many times. hehehe

in conclusion, i hope i learn something from the boston brass and mr tan conductoring skill at phil wind concert. and really hope i can be like them some day.... which is dunno when or maybe will not happen.

school reopen still feel ok. some how i got the felling that i want to chat with my friend. but like everytime find the wrong time. but even when got time, somehow dunno what to talk about. is like only when i got a problem then got something to talk about. dunno is good or bad or is something normal. just hope every thing is fine. hope my friends can come for my CNL concert this saturday. want tickets get from me pls....

random

I HAVE NOT ENOUGH MONEY TO SPEND!!!!

HOW!!!

is really time for me to save money if not i will not able to save up at least 200 dollars.

last sem result was the worst i got in my whole poly life. really have to buck up. i really should have choose a subject that i can easily score and not something that i like. i have to be real. Not to be in my dream world where i thing everything will happen like the way i like or happen. i should have just go for what i can get for the best.

After alumni band that day, Mrs Ong and Miss Mindy told me to continue in my study at U. But i told them that my result not good enough to get in. they say will help me by using CCA or something to get in NTU or NUS. Which i think i still will not get in. Even if i get in, what should i study? thinking of going NIE get another Dip first in music teaching with Dan. but is like i keep getting some many Dip and not a Degree.

I tell myself now that i will not think the way that i think i want it to be but the way how the world is now. hm. finish poly then say lor.

I suddenly starting be feel abit happy but get angry again because of my FUCKING BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!

He keep thinking that he is the best in the world and i always the worst because i am in teck whye sec before result not as good as him. thinking that he is better in everything compare to me. what the fuck is this. if is like this every time when he need help he will find me and ask me to help if i dun help get angry with me.

I AM NOT HIS SLAVE fucker. there is more things that i am better then you. so what you are smarter by a bit. but we are in both different competition area. if you are so good you also will not study in NA too.

ya i dumb can? everyone also think so can?

Friends or just Friends

Today went back teck whye for band. Before that have lunch with yyt, zoe, darryl and don. When we reach teck whye, they were all doing marching. As usual some how i will go and take over and i think is time to make them have more fell in doing marching and do it well. So took them scold them and do the things over and over again. Some of them are starting to like it and do it seriously. Colin came and he dun look good. i dunno whether izzit because i miss the last sunday practice. But i i found out that the trouble in the band have grew bigger and i think it have solve as todays practise alot of people came and good run thru of the first half. cause before that he told me maybe cancel of this concert. OH NO!!! i some how dun like this feeling. hai.

but is no more hope we can sell more tickets and have a good concert. but today some how i got just lose another solo just like this. haizzz. he cannot count or watch sometime really makes me angry. i no i am not a good player but at least i know went to play or shut up.

on the way home alone as usual.

just some how felt that we are not that close anymore. as friend

we use to chat for a long hours and now like can't talk.

i always try to find the rite time so we can talk longer but some how is i dunno what to say or is just that we are both not enthu enough to chat.

i know there are times like fighting and helping me.

and use to have you to call me and even ask how i am.

but now i dunno. maybe i think too much but i sure how i feel.

you told her that you have not change any ways towards me, is just because you are not free, but somehow i dunno izzit really like that. is not i dun trust you but is just too coincedent. i am not doubting you but is how i think.

is like now you will not coming to me and talk but only when you need me.

maybe like this also good for me to think carefully.

finally i got to work abit for more money hehehe.... teaching band tml....

good luck to me and good nite if i can sleep.

rp concert

today went for RP concert. they really starting to sound nice. good feel and i think everyone in the hall enjoy it.

the hall very Japanese hall. ha ha sound coming out from band sounding like you at the durian shell.

after concert we meet up Colin and Zoe for supper and drink!!! hahah i starting to like drink ( beer ). thanks Colin for give this treat.

by drinking you can gain bigger balls so i have learn that before concert drink some alcohol.

drinking also have yourselves to stay at your own world for a while dun need to think all the things that in your mind.

lastly can sleep well.

i think i really drunken.

good nite to myself.....

random

After 2 japanese guy came down for a workshop, i think i have learn alot from them not just how to play well and better but follow what i need to do.

just got to practise harder to get better tone and high notes.

just got home after CNL practises. It feels good at least we played better. :)
but dunno whether and make it in time:(

those who wanna come pls let me know!!!

after CNL practises i was waiting for cab to go home cause is very late. but i waited like at least 3o mons then got one cab.... =.=

while waiting for cab, i was thinking about things....

how am i now?

Feeling good?

Attention?

Lost?

Lonely?

in the end, i just want someone to talk too....

i dunno maybe is time to be in the past again, the old ways and everything...

the time will come.....

ok i think better do more on my FYP and concert is coming!!! die!!!
maybe also no one will come so is ok :)

good nite to me