learn a big lesson

i finally really learn a big lesson. but whether i know how is use the skill that i learn on solving problem like this i not sure. but will try to use it to change i have to change.

i suddenly feel very light ( Not weight). like i have throw away a huge stone. but i dunno izzit good. cause that does not mean problems in me have solve. i really have to start from start. you are rite, why i so scare that i fall, babies also like this. is a natural process.

this time i really have to do what i have to do. not letting anyone disappoint anymore. i will do my best. hope you all can support me too. :) if i did anything wrong or hurt you in someways, i'm really sorry.

a new start a new me:)

today

I suddenly have that pain or say ache on my chest. i think i know why. but i choose not to know why. i dun like this feeling. is like kena eaten up. but is aching alot.

i suddenly dunno how to face the problem like i wanted to. i did face it try to solve it and everything that can be done. but i came back to square one again. i very disappointed with myself.

i know i must face it and solve it. but deep inside, i know is pain. i really dunno how. when both things happen at the same time. i really cannot take it. how! please help me!

i want to be in the banck ground. but i want to in the happy way. but i dun like the feel now. maybe really more and more stress is coming in and not out. i really want to be happy!!! not worries.

deep sleep will help.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Ching Si and Brandon. i know i wishing you all too early too. but 19 and 20 oct is coming very near.

Brandon We coming to your birthday party hope that i can get your present in time. time very pasts very fast. 3 years in poly is really very short. for Brandon reach age of 21. It Will be a new chapter of life ahead. i dunno whether we will still have chance to meet up or have fun again, but always take the good memory of the day we had .

For Ching Si, i will say that you will have a new chapter of life too as you are going to enlist in soon. i feel very happy to know you as a friend. even thought there is ups and down and some shit things happen between us. hope you will have a better life ahead and go forward, forgot the bad and have more new or nice memory. maybe it will be an end here, but there will be a new start.

haiz.... like what Jermaine (twss) said, time pasts very fast treasure your friends family and everyone around you. dun break away because of Small things, or even demand too much from them until they got scare away. you will regret for life. Jermaine dun worry, sometime is good that when you die pple cry for you, as you know they loves you and cherish you a lot.

oh no it should be a happy entry. oh no.


ALL THE BEST TO YOU BOTH GUYS....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance. :)

getting use to it

i think i getting use to the changes around me.

i know what my hearts want to go.

i know i scare off alot of people in the way i am.

but now i know hot to carry on and do the changes

but i still scare.

still need the motivation that i use to get.

but i think is time for me to go on with myself.

not feeling good

i suddenly just lose my sense of directions. not having a good feeling again.

i need back the encouragement that i use to get from.

i need someone to be my back bone.

i need someone that can make me feel better again.

going to lose a brother is like not good.

dun have the strong confident that use to have to compete is not good also.

can you help me?

never be the same again

first happy birthday to chang zuo. 14 le... must learn to think more maturely. we bought him a bag pack and i gave him a polo t shirt that i bought.

we have a hamburger shape birthday cake. :) is so cool and is chocolate inside.

after the event everyone went home.

today, wake up late and started thinking that everything around me will not stay the same way it use to be. is either become more apart or closed to you. just like song i heard, one part of the lyrics is never be the same again. which is true. just have to learn to accept it. but is whether apart or closer.... i dunno i still have to accept it... hehe if i dun accept it it will also go like this so accept it and follow it. hmmm.

why is there so many oct babies. :(

swimming!

today i make myself to wake up at 830 to meet chang zuo at 9 to go swimming!!! hahaha finally i start to do some work out. hehe swim for like half an hour non stop. feeling very tired. then went sch for practical at 1pm to 4pm. then when back home. fredrick and chang zuo after came my house just to eat and play o2jam. -.-

hmm. thinking for many nights. what song can the alumni play. but i heard that maybe there are changes. i dunno sia. hmm but i think we comfirm march beyond the critical point, la storia and sherk dance party. this should be good enough. hope so.

Eupho brandon having his 21st birthday party, sp eupho section pple, if you see this msg in my blog, pls let me know whether you all can go. starts around 630 and is on the 20 oct.

what wei ren say maybe is rite. make yourselves very busy with work and tired. no time to do other thigns or even think about things. and slowly, emo monster will go away..... trying and still not the rite track.