i keep thinking that i know how my friends feel and my Juniors feel. but the fact is like NO!!! i kno wthey are not happy or happy or even have any new things happen to them. but i just somehow like know and dunno. i dun dare to ask. and the more i ask it feels like i want to enter their problems. and somehow give them stress indirectly.

i always say you or pple or that person is so no sensative. but i think carefully now i am the one. i am the one always make them worry what me. i feel so bad. i dunn how to help them. is like more i say the more i want to disturb their own live.

or maybe all the problems they have also started with me. hai i really dunno how to read everyones mind. i just suddenly feel so distance with everyone. cause i really dunno what they are thinking. or maybe even they dun like me at all but just..... know act normal.

i think some of my friends are rite. i must really learn to protect myself first.

now i scare that i will sabo my company in BMT.

god pls bless me and save me from all this. grant me with the sensative mind to understand pple more.

friends are very important.

and they are also very fragile.

once break very hard to glue in together.

even if can there is still scars that will never be remove.

i dunno whether is break.

i want to know.

but somehow i just dunno.

sad.