i am here to update my blog before in go in ns. time have pass very fast. many things have happen in my poly and post poly life and i think i learn alot. but to use it i dunno. i hope i will not be as blur and careless. and trust myself more.

i really you miss my family and friends. cause once go on ns i dun have time to join them even after bmt. thanks for all my friends who sent farewell msg, call me to tell me and in any way. i miss sp band, my eupho section and twss band, schools that i have teach, my alumni band and lastly my home.

i will be going for a long chalet. hope to see you all again 2 weeks later.
bye everyone.

i will learn to take care myself.

Should I stay or Should I go

it seems like there is alot of misunderstanding happening around me. the best is until now i still cannot get over somethings and even solve it. eveything seems getting worst. why people just can't see how i want to help them but see it as i want them the way i one.

maybe is my way of doing things. and every single year there will be a major thing happen. i feel very bad i keep thinking that is me that never teach them the right thing. i feel that i may have teach them the wrong thing. i dunno. i messing up myself now. i really dunno how to go in ns in the shape i am now.

i tell myself not to care what people think about when i know i am doing the right thing. but i always want to make everyone happy which will not happen.

should i stay or should i go?
i really dunno. if i'm that bad why? if i'm that good why?
i trying to stay as focus as i can.
why am i so weak.
why people just dun give me that chance to show or believe in what i can do for you.

if everything seems so bad.

i will leave and not going back.

it seems this is the best way.

until i know how to do.

thanks god for letting me know.

is really time for me to do things i want to do